the case of the clam.

I come across to most people as being really shy and quiet.

A girl who keeps to herself.

But if you talk to me for over 15 minutes, you'll quickly come to another conclusion.

I believe most people think "Jesus, this girl is insane/loud/obnoxious/hilarious."

I love talking to people and making them laugh.

The part I previously mentioned about me being shy does hold true, though only in special cases.

There are certain people (well, a certain person...) with whom I would love to have a converstion with. Any time I am near this "certain person", I clam up. Seriously, I can not say a word. A little laugh and a smile is about all I can produce. I'll sit there in class thinking "Ok, I'll talk now... Maybe now... Ok, now... I swear I will!" Just when I'm about to say something, it always happens.

The bell rings.

This has happened on more than one occasion.

The first time I thought, "Oh, that was just unlucky."

The second time I thought, "Crap. Ok, next time."

...

The @!&^%&th time I thought, "TANIA OPEN UP YOUR EFFIN MOUTH, GODDAMMIT."

I'm seriously starting to get worried (and maybe a little amused at how ridiculous I'm being).

I mean, there are only about 2 more months of school.

If I don't strike up a conversation now, I won't have the chance to. 

Ahaha.

It doesn't really matter, though.

I feel like I've only been complaining on this blog so far.

I promise next time I'll post something happy and exciting.

-tania