i've got nothing to worry about.

Except the fact is that I do.

AP tests and finals are fast approaching.
But what am I doing?
Listening to music.
Lots and lots of music.

I just bought a 3 day pass for Lollapalooza.
I'm so excited because I've never gone before.
I also want to make sure that I take full advantage of the $190 I spent.
That's why I've been trying to listen to new artists.

I've asked my friends to recommend new bands and singers to me.
Thanks to their lists, I am slowly broadening my musical horizons.

What surprised me, though, is that a band I actually liked before reading the Lolla lineup is going to be there.

Friendly Fires is who I'm most excited to see.
Their songs have such an amazing dance beat.
They are really good.
Plus, they're from the UK.
I recommend that you check them out.

Oh and even though I just plugged Friendly Fires, my post title is a line from "Nothing to Worry About" by Peter Bjorn and John.

have you ever seen the rain?

I made a list of things I really enjoy for the little box under the picture on my Facebook profile.

I'm going to write about each one of them in a blog post every time I have nothing else to talk about.

First on my list is rain.

Very convenient seeing how it has been raining all day today.

On most days, I enjoy a good, relaxing rain shower.

If I'm feeling a bit depressed or have a lot of things to do that include walking in the rain, then not so much.

Anyway, it's days like these when you just want to curl up and read a book.

(Or post on your blog, I guess.)

Rain has always been symbolic for cleansing, whether it be clearing off dirty snow that plagues our Chicago streets (not currently, thank goodness) or a more metaphorical, internal cleansing.

While I don't really get into the second of the two, I do think that rain helps put things into perspective.

If you're just sitting there listening to the rain, you start to think about things.

Hearing it drip down the gutter or fall onto the roof, your mind sort of clears itself out.

Plus, who doesn't love a bit of Creedence Clearwater Revival?

driving.

I want my license.
Yes, I only have my permit.
I've had it since September '07.
(I told you I am a procrastinator.)

I really like driving.
Though I'm sure I'd like it more without my parents in the car.
(eg. "Tania, there's a stop sign! Stop! Oh my God, you're going to kill us.")

But honestly, it makes me feel really independent.
I think that when I'm able to drive myself around and I don't have to rely on my parents to take me places, I'll feel a lot more mature.

I also like it because, even though I'm kind of a nervous person, I'm really calm when I drive.
I find it relaxing to just cruise around with the windows open and music playing.

I'm excited because my mom said she will probably (when she says probably, it's usually "yes".) get me a car.
She can't decide what kind of car would be best for me, though.

One minute she thinks the Ford F350 will be the safest for me to drive.
I think that I'd run people over and not even notice ("Was that a squirrel?")

Then she'll mention cars like Mustangs and Corvettes. Obviously the first one is a bit more affordable. I'll be honest, I wouldn't mind having a Mustang. I'd only be worried about someone carjacking me. Ahaha.
If I could get any sort of vehicle, it would be this:

Anyway, I have some reading to do.
The three books I can chose from are all 400+ pages.
Great.

twitter.

I just set up a Twitter account.
I think that it's a little pointless, but I know it will keep me busy.
Not that I need to be kept busy, but rather, to keep my mind from wandering when I'm uber bored.

My username is "loveandmadness".
I wanted to make it "peaceloveandmadness" but there were too many characters.

Anyway, this blog post is complete nonsense.
It's not organized or well thought out.
Either way, I still have something to say.

So, tonight my family and I saw the Hannah Montana movie.
Thrilling, I know.
But I'll be honest, I really really like the song "The Climb."

It's pretty much talking about how life's full of hardships and it's not about actually getting to your endpoint, but what you do on your way there.
I know it sounds cliche and oh-so-Disney, but for some reason it's really resonating with me.
It makes a lot of sense.

I'm starting to realize that life goes by so fast.
It's April of my junior year already and I feel like I still have so much I want to do.
I sort of want to "break out of my shell", if you will.
I was at the store yesterday and I heard a song on the radio and just randomly started dancing.
It was a lot of fun.
And I want to have fun more often.
My life is just way too boring.

Well, this post was all over the place.
Sorry if it caused you mental pain.

-tania

ew.

Do you ever get an image or thought stuck in your head and no matter what you do, you can't get it out?
Of course you have.
Who hasn't?

I'm being plagued by a mental image that's been on my mind for a few days.
This is a serious problem.
I keep trying to erase it from my thoughts, but to no avail.
Every time I shoo it away, it comes back in and creeps around like the crazy lady in "The Yellow Wallpaper" (for some reason, that's the only simile I could think of when using the verb "creep").
It's just such a "blegh" picture.

Hopefully it will have the consideration to give me a respite.

I also have a song stuck in my head, but that I don't mind too much.
It's "Paper Planes" by M.I.A.
I don't even know why I like it so much.
I think I just have fun doing the hand motions during the chorus.

I should probably get to sleep.
I'm going out to lunch tomorrow with a few amazing people.
I need to be fully rested in order to be ready for the awesomeness that is sure to happen.

-tania

my mind.

I'm pretty sure my head's going to explode.

There's way too much going on inside my brain for it to still function properly.

Here are some visuals so you can get a sense of what's going on in my head:

(Easter)

(AP Exams)

(Emotions, feelings, etc.)

 (A movie I've wanted to watch again for the longest time but haven't had the chance to)

(English extra credit opportunity)

       (TMJ)

Ok, I think that list was enough.

Now, I'm not complaining, because, as we all know, that's pointless.

I'm pretty much just trying to straighten out my thoughts.

And I'm obviously doing so online, because really, what other way is there? [/end sarcasm]

I'll try to post again soon, even though I don't even want to keep this blog anymore.

I want to be honest and open with what I post, but that's really not an option.

I try to make my posts as indirect as possible, but I know that the people who read this blog know what I'm talking about.

Don't think I don't know that you know, ahaha.

Anyway,

I think I'll get something to eat now.

-tania

wait, what?

Awkward moments define my life.

I pretty much savor them when they come along.

Usually a situation springs up and I'll just go, "Wait, what?"

Like, "Is this seriously happening?"

But it's fine, I'm used to it.

No problems here.

I just laugh it off, because honestly, I don't dwell on things.
There's no point.

Plus, it's not good for the soul.

-tania

dancing.

I haven't posted in a while.
I've been so busy, with life and stuff.
You know.

Anyway, Junior Prom was yesterday.
Very, very fun.
:)

I was really worried about was dancing, however.
I seem to always make a fool out of myself when trying to dance.
Yesterday was probably no exception.
I did eventually let loose though, after much encouragement.
It was kind of hard to dance to a lot of songs, though, thanks to the DJ.

But I'm not complaining.
Not one bit.
It was definitely a lot of fun.

-tania